Guess Not
I decided to give up on my identity-structure analysis of Arisophanes' speech on the origin of love in Plato's Symposium. Whatever. I wasn't married to it. So it's gone.
I'm just going to try to articulate somehow the underlying or not-so-underlying idea of desire present in the speech as it pertains to Hedwig's desire for her other half. Of course by the end of my film analysis it's not really the other half that she desires but to realize her whole. I'm not there yet.
And I've just tried to write and it wasn't working. I may get to bed by 1 a.m. I ran into Vince today. I was outside with a friend and he walked up to me and kissed me on the cheek. He's the guy who one first place in the essay contest. The brilliant guy. He told me that he really liked my piece, that he liked the writing, and the idea. It was a great compliment.
I haven't read his essay yet, so that sucked, but I congratulated him and told him we were awesome. He agreed. I saw Elizabeth today. Apparently, I'm still not quite in touch with my feelings. Trying to come up with words to describe them is difficult for me. She said that my head was separated from my heart. I told her that Matthew Arnold wrote a poem about that. She dropped her head into her hand. She does that a lot with me. It's funny.
So I have to work on this feeling thing. I seem to just talk, rather than feel, to separate my emotions from the story I'm telling. Gotta figure that out. My friend Mary will be in town this weekend. I may travel upstate with her. That would be cool. I've barely ventured out of the city. I think I might be ready for some of that. I'm looking forward to her visit.
I always like it when my people from out west come east and see me in my digs. They get to see where I sit at 2 a.m. when I'm talking to them on the phone. Well, I think I may try to go do some more writing so I feel like I got something accomplished today. I did write a cover letter and finish up my resume. It's time to start thinking beyond school. I wonder what's around the corner?
